"To live on the edge of the inside is different than being an insider, a 'company man' or a dues paying member. Yes, you have learned the rules and you understand and honor the system as far as it goes, but you do not need to protect it, defend it or promote it. It has served its initial and helpful function. You have learned the rules well enough to know how to 'break the rules' without really breaking them at all. 'Not to abolish the law but to complete it' as Jesus rightly puts it (Matthew 5:17). A doorkeeper must love both the inside and the outside of his or her group, and know how to move between these two loves."